However, after years of internal work through therapy and medication, I now recognize depression and addiction have always been real in my family. It was real for my grandmother, who drank every evening after losing her firstborn son to suicide. It was real for my mother, who was sexually abused as a child and turned to drugs as self-medication. And it continues to be real for me. I am a mosaic of the two women who raised me, women who couldn’t overcome the stigma of mental health in our culture. As a child, I had to comfort myself. I hid and cried, knees to the chest, holding myself together. One day my mother found me and mocked me, saying, “Stop acting stupid; you’re not crazy! It’s time to break the cycle of trauma we call culture. I tell my story to create a safe place for anyone struggling. We should be proud of our culture, but also of our ability to change. My mother was the first person I saw change in. Although she never overcame her depression, she did beat her addiction. For that I am forever proud of her.